Random Thoughts

This are some of the things that came to mind lately:

1. No matter what happens, my outlook has an impact on how things will eventually work out. For the past two months I'd been pessimistic and I did fail in my goals for April and May. Now, I have a more or less positive frame of mind and things are working out just fine. I see more positive events in the next few months, even a promotion before the end of the year.

2. Lovelife is not necessary at this point but has been bugging me lately. Needless to say, it is consuming a lot of mind space which should be slotted for thinking of my MA thesis topic.

3. I had been presented with a lot of opportunities to change my life but I've hindered myself by thinking about things too much. Sometimes I just need a little spontaneity; a little careless act, perhaps.

4. I had been meaning to exercise but has not gotten around it yet. Well, there is nothing new about that but now, given that I am not taking any subjects anymore a round in the academic oval is not a far-fetched idea anymore. Maybe I should really move to KNL.

5. I wanted to move to a cheaper apartment or probably bedspace since I am planning to buy a house in the next few months. I have to save for my deposit and monthly amortizations.

Left Behind

I just learned today that a friend of mine from work got promoted. I am happy for her given that I was the one who wrote her recommendation letter (ghost writer, her supervisor who was so lazy to make a recom letter just initialed it).

On one hand though, I feel left behind. I had been with the company for more than 2 years and has only been part of a specialized team but has never been promoted yet. I need to move up the corporate ladder and this better be soon.

I will make sure my metrics are excellent and I will be promoted before the year ends. I will NOT be left behind.

Mt. Samat Experience

I'd been wanting to travel (backpack specifically), the Philippines and last week I had a taste of it. I went to Bataan Saturday afternoon. I then went to find a cheap apartelle and then stayed there for a night. I woke up early the next morning (I found out later I did not wake up early enough) and I commissioned a tricycle to take me to Mt. Samat.

Guess what, I walked the 7 kilometer-road to Mt. Samat and given my poor health, I took almost 3 hours to climb the mountain as I had to rest every so often. Because my decision to walk up the mountain was an on-the-spot decision I did not have anything with me except a 500 ml bottle of mineral water and 3 bars of KitKat.

I thought I was not going to make it but I did! It was exhilarating! When I finally reached the top I felt so healthy and all peppy. I paid the P 20 entrance fee and then went up the site where the cross is. I thought there were stores there that sell decent food (I was mighty starving!) but no. They were selling chips and chicharon so I had to make do with those. I also replenished my dehydrated body with lots and lots of water.

I went up the cross and viewed the beautiful landscape of Bataan from the top. I intended to stay there for a couple of hours but they had to close during the lunch break so I went down and took a nap in one of the benches downstairs.

After a few hours I decided to go home. This time I rode one of the habal-habals for a fee of P 50.

I ate proper lunch and then went to the terminal around 4. By six I was already in Quezon City. I found it very refreshing and I felt good about myself, too because in a span of 24 hours and with P 1000 only I was able to do something I've never done before.

Just Got Dumped

Well, I do not have to give it up anymore. She just dumped me and it hurts like hell. She told me not to communicate with her and all the more I feel the pain.

I guess I just have to keep on writing to at least ease the pain.

Perhaps I Should Just Give Up

After a long time of not writing, I suddenly have this urge to write because of a blog I saw. My "girl friend" created a blog here in Blogspot and I saw it. There she detailed how she loves this other guy who does not love her at all. So I guess that is the reason why fro 4 days now, she has not been in contact with men. No emails, no texts nor call, and no IM messages.

I feel frustrated and down. I feel like my world is tumbling over but what can I do? We are all bound this thing called LOVE and there is very little we can do once our emotions take over.

I love her. I love RSK. She makes me feel special and yet she is in love with someone else. All I can do is to back off and let her be happy with the man she loves.

I wish you luck RSK. If and when possible, I still look forward to marrying you in 2020 as we agreen on. I love you very much.

Masayang Simbang Gabi

I was going to work today and there were a lot of people near St. Peter's Church. And then it dawned upon me-Simbang Gabi.

Simbang Gabi means that it is the last few days before Christmas. For nine days, churchgoers, go to church (obviously) before daybreak and celebrate mass.

This means, for me, a time to eat my favorite bibingka. I am not a Catholic, so I do not go to mass but I always buy bibingka. I am looking forward to more bibingka days because of Simbang Gabi.

Blogging makes me free

What I like about blogging is that I am anonymous. I can say whatever I like to say and no one can police me.

I am free from all the corporate, academic and religious limitations. All my repressed urges can and would be expressed in a blog. I sure do have a blog where everyone who knows me can see but that's pretty limiting. I can't really talk about my latent feeling in the innermost recesses of my mind and heart.

I hope to be able to post more to this. :-)